Realising Happyness ....

When was the last time I was happy ? I pondered a lot over this , introspected at times but didn't get an answer. Why do I and for that matter most of us crave for happiness ? After some introspection ,the answer I arrived at surprised me .Happiness is not something that would come to us . It is we who have to approach it . Life is an amazing sequence of yin and yang . We have to look at the brighter side of life to have the bliss . I usually remain upset over the plethora of difficulties which most of us have to go through , many a times holding my fate or so called destiny responsible for the quagmire my life is in . But I never found a way out because I always thought another better situation might be a solution to the problem at hand. But I was wrong . Life is no doubt a challenge which we have to tackle differently . Predictability is the worst thing in life . Treat life the way it treats us . Always find positives in worst of situations.Last night in a business conclave our prime minister " Mr Manmohan singh "was asked how he defines the challenges in life .The reply was " Grace under Pressure " . Those words gave me an all out answer to my question .

Why am I so dumb .....

The phone buzzed "18 till I die....." Tired of snoozing the alarm again and again I switched it off and dozed off not realising that it was almost 8 in the morning . Bang ..was what I heard next . Amidst the culinary chaos in the morning someone had dropped a large aluminium vessel . The noisy dim atlast broke my sleep . Totally unaware of the fact that my office timing was almost up , I got hooked on to the newspaper. "CAT results to be out today ...." . "Uff not again ..." I just analysed , how my paper went on that horrible day, in my mind . "Don't u need to go to office today , it's getting late and by the way you would be getting ur results today , isn't it ?" my dad asked . I sort of told to myself , " If I dont make it this time then my future's doomed " . I got ready for office in time and left for the day .The time of the day arrived . It was 1500 hrs . My heart beat almost stopped for a few minutes. I quickely grabbed my cell and keyed in my registration number. 97.5 it blinked ........I said to myself " Fucking score... am screwed .... " A moment later my phone rang and then on a fusillade of questions , consolations and keep up the fight words pounded upon me as if am witnessings a rain of piercing words. I was really tired fielding questions from everyone and congratulating my friends on their stupendous performances .

That night I had a real analysis of myself . In the course of introspection I said to myself " Why am I so dumb.....Couldnt crack CAT again ...." I knew had I added 15+2 = 17 and had drwan the inverted tree properly I would have made it but all I could do then was 15+2 =16 and draw wrong branches on the inverted tree ..........Silly me .

Life is really sucking now a days for me . Why am I being screwed so badly . Have I lost some of my grey matter and are my synaptic intertwinings getting unwinded ?? I couldnt answer any of these . The only thing I knew was am not going to give up. Thats the only thing left in me my self confidence .Beaten but not yet lost ...........The game is still not over ..

A great personality , Paulo Coelho , if am not mistaken this time , has said something for not so great person like me , " When you really want something all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it "..

Do We still need miracles ??

Theism has long dominated our minds. Having taken birth in this land of variegated religious beliefs we have had plethora of miraculous instances to shape our thoughts. Our history is replete with examples of our checkered past mired in various religious battles. The dawning of the industrial age has subsided much of the blind religious faiths in the world , setting on a new practical and iconoclastic mindset .The sad part is still there exist enough of it to keep the smolders burning.

The controversy regarding Makarajyothi is one such issue at hand.For ages devotees have been thronging the temple to get a divine darshan of Lord Ayappa and feel the divine presence at the sanctum sanctorium. No one knows the truth behind Makarajyothi except for what our ancestors and forefathers have been saying us about the Gods showering their blessings. For centuries this divine Jyothi has been the reason for attracting ever increasing number of devotees .There have been many who have delved into finding out the reason behind this miracle. Many have come up with their own version into how the entire event is a state sponsored histrionics. Whatever it is my point is simple. Do we need miracles to keep our beliefs intact ? Isn't the faith in Lord Ayappa enough for us to sustain and increase this belief . Would be stop having faith if miracles no longer happen ? It is not easy to fend off such questions at this point in time . We don't want devotees to have their beliefs based on blind faith. Faith arises out of belief and not miracles . It is better we understand this as soon as possible so that we don’t keep our posterity wondering about this rebus.

Halla Bol......

It made my day .That is what comes to my mind after watching another rocking movie from the genre called thematic movies .From the plethora of movies that our industry throws out every year , it's sad but at least a pleasing fact that we get to see movie of the genre of Rang De Basanti and Halla Bol.

Ever wondered why such movies are always a hit with our audience here. We being emotional people, attach ourselves to the every vestigial Indianess present anywhere in the movie .While we see our on screen protagonists proudly and dutifully do wonders with their histrionics we get involved in them to such an extent that we see ourselves in the position and have pride in it. But how many of us play even a small act If this were to happen in our real life.

I know we are mired in red taped quagmire and bureaucratic despotism , still the answer to the above question , apart from a few voices ,would be a loud zero. What makes us so hypocritical when it comes to fighting crimes? Or is it that we prefer our patriotism to remain on screen and not bother to get it into our daily lives .All of us want to have a comfortable life with our wife , kids , money and family . We all like to hear the sensex soar each day and like to see our wealth multiply. Reading mere headlines on the business journals should not be and cannot be the sole feel good factor for us. We stand for ourselves when we raise voices against injustice just as what happened to cases like Jessica Lal , Nitish katara and our very own Manjunath .Aren't those fighting for their justice like us . Then why do they take this trouble to augment this mass movement.

The answer is very simple and it is within us. It is because they still preserve their values and patriotism. If we don’t fight for justice we don’t have any right to call ourselves patriotic .When an on field verbal fusillade in Australia results into a issue of national pride why isn't the daily casteism borne issues not dealt with in our country .In our race to superpowerdom we have somehow learnt this wrong lesson to improve our facade but forgotten to purify the decay inside. Its time for us to imbibe and accept this .We will have issues coming our ways but unless we unite and fight against it we would be confined just to our theatre seats and magazine covers .Real life heroes don’t want for anyone to say Action, they simply ACT.